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Fly (2)

I'm tired.

I'm unsure.

I'm not up.

I'm not down.

Where am I?

What am I?

Who am I?

So much to say.

No way to say it.

I cannot express.

It all sticks inside.

I know people care.

People have expressed this.

I know people are my friends.

Their actions show this.

I do not know if I care.

I see this vacant shell that is my life.

Yet it has become a paradox.

I have seen more life in this shell than anywhere else.

So am I truly emptied?

No.

I cannot be.

That last glimmer of light remains.

Strong.

There is nothing now.

Only hope.

Hope that it all gets better.

Hope for a life worth living.

Hope for something wonderful.

I still remain unsure.

I do not know what lies ahead.

I feel like Hamlet.

Not knowing what dreams may come.

Though I speak not of the sleep of death.

But the sleep of life.

In life are we truly awake?

I think not.

These blurred visions of people.

Flying by.

Or am I the one who is flying?

To fly.

To be free.

To live.

That is true happiness.

Some may see it as love.

As friendship.

As achievement.

To me, I am not sure what form it comes in.

Blurred figures passing me by.

Those who are clear, do I know them?

No, not all.

Those in focus.

They have interest.

Character.

Beauty--inside or out.

Life.

They are taking off too.

To fly.

To live.

To understand.

The flight is a new plane.

New thoughts.

New life.

To fly is to be reborn.

10:37 p.m. - 2002-03-21

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